More From The City

A few more from yesterday's outing, after a bit of editing.

 Just another glass tower at first glance, but I find it interesting.

Walkabout Downtown

Bright Lights 
Overcast Morning,
Big
Mid-sized 
City

Photos copyright T. Lundberg, but if you want to use them just ask first. (This an OK font for legal mumbo-jumbo?)

Go fly a...well, you know...

A few scenes from an unseasonably warm afternoon here in the heartland.

And kites weren't the only things flying.

Thanksgiving 11/22/2012

March 3, 1964 - By direction of the Secretary of the Army, under the provisions of paragraph 33, AR 672-5-1, the Army Commendation Medal for meritorious achievement is awarded to:
Yeoman Second Class George A. Barnum,  United States Coast Guard
Corporal Timothy F. Cheek,  United States Marine Corps
Seaman Apprentice Hubert A. Clark  United States Navy
Lance Corporal Jerry J. Diamond  United States Marine Corps
Staff Sergeant Richard E. Gaudreau  United States Air Force
Seaman Apprentice Larry B. Smith  United States Navy
For duties performed 22 November to 25 November 1963

49 years ago, this group of men, along with Sergeant James L. Fielder, United States Army, were commanded by First Lieutenant Samuel R. Bird, United States Army.

I am thankful for the service of these men during some of the darkest hours in our Nation's history, and the continuing sacrifices our men and women in uniform.

Note: I believe the only reason Sgt. Fielder did not receive the commendation was that he had already left the service by March of 1964.
Links:
JFK Library
Salisbury Post
http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=11853037
http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=69378224

Stoked

An English soccer team decided to stop by Kansas City for a friendly with the local 11.  The game is tomorrow night, but Stoke City opened their workout today to the public and then signed autographs after.  This Kansas boy couldn't pass up a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to see his favorite soccer team in the world up close.

I was disappointed with how most of the photos turned out, but I think I was too busy being a fan to worry about my camera.  But that's OK with me.

My Aching Headline 2

Pro Angler to Disabled List With Torn Pole, Hopes to Avoid Tommy Johnboat Surgery.

A Voice From The Shadow

Today's subject is one that I have been considering addressing for some time, and did partly, in a previous post.  I have been reluctant because it is intensely personal for me, but a recent event convinced me it is time to speak up.

In the grip of the demon again

Far from joy

Close to the end

Examine and describe the ugly

The wretched

The walking dead

Smiles are memories

This now crushes

This now blinds

Even in the light I am but a blink away

The words are mine.
They seem a bit odd today.  Embarrassing. The really bad days are gone now, I hope for good. But the words are also a bit scary, because I know they came from deep inside of me.

Which me today

Shell or sunshine

Love or landmine

Do I choose or am I driven

How can they both be me

Which one reality

It's a cliche, but I know of no other way to describe it.
It's a shadow.
But I also know it's a shadow I cast on myself.

Standing at the edge

The top of the slide

Corkscrew down

If I drop my guard I go for the ride

Step over here

Look from the other side

I think my way there

When no exit can be seen

She reminds me I’m not really there

There's a hint at some of the solution there. At least for me.

If you love me like I think

You hide the suffering well

I must put you in purgatory

When I’m in my hell

Will you keep waiting for me to emerge

From the shadows I walk through

Can you breath for the both of us

Can you be sane for two

The right days are wonderful

But too few

From the darkness I can barely remember them

And the wonder that is you

Every situation is different, but professionals will tell you that interacting with others is key to our mental health.  I know it's not easy.  When I was down, the last thing I wanted to do was to be around anyone.  But I also found that interacting with people was exactly the thing that helped me most consistently.

But mainly, know this:
You are not alone. 
You are loved. 
You have no idea how many lives you touch and how many people would be devastated by your loss. Even people you have never met.
If I made it, you can too.


If you need help and don't know where to start, write to me.  I will help.  


If you feel like you need to talk to someone right now, call The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, 1-800-273-TALK(8255)

You are not alone. 

You are loved.