Go fly a...well, you know...

A few scenes from an unseasonably warm afternoon here in the heartland.

And kites weren't the only things flying.

Thanksgiving 11/22/2012

March 3, 1964 - By direction of the Secretary of the Army, under the provisions of paragraph 33, AR 672-5-1, the Army Commendation Medal for meritorious achievement is awarded to:
Yeoman Second Class George A. Barnum,  United States Coast Guard
Corporal Timothy F. Cheek,  United States Marine Corps
Seaman Apprentice Hubert A. Clark  United States Navy
Lance Corporal Jerry J. Diamond  United States Marine Corps
Staff Sergeant Richard E. Gaudreau  United States Air Force
Seaman Apprentice Larry B. Smith  United States Navy
For duties performed 22 November to 25 November 1963

49 years ago, this group of men, along with Sergeant James L. Fielder, United States Army, were commanded by First Lieutenant Samuel R. Bird, United States Army.

I am thankful for the service of these men during some of the darkest hours in our Nation's history, and the continuing sacrifices our men and women in uniform.

Note: I believe the only reason Sgt. Fielder did not receive the commendation was that he had already left the service by March of 1964.
Links:
JFK Library
Salisbury Post
http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=11853037
http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=69378224

Stoked

An English soccer team decided to stop by Kansas City for a friendly with the local 11.  The game is tomorrow night, but Stoke City opened their workout today to the public and then signed autographs after.  This Kansas boy couldn't pass up a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to see his favorite soccer team in the world up close.

I was disappointed with how most of the photos turned out, but I think I was too busy being a fan to worry about my camera.  But that's OK with me.

My Aching Headline 2

Pro Angler to Disabled List With Torn Pole, Hopes to Avoid Tommy Johnboat Surgery.

A Voice From The Shadow

Today's subject is one that I have been considering addressing for some time, and did partly, in a previous post.  I have been reluctant because it is intensely personal for me, but a recent event convinced me it is time to speak up.

In the grip of the demon again

Far from joy

Close to the end

Examine and describe the ugly

The wretched

The walking dead

Smiles are memories

This now crushes

This now blinds

Even in the light I am but a blink away

The words are mine.
They seem a bit odd today.  Embarrassing. The really bad days are gone now, I hope for good. But the words are also a bit scary, because I know they came from deep inside of me.

Which me today

Shell or sunshine

Love or landmine

Do I choose or am I driven

How can they both be me

Which one reality

It's a cliche, but I know of no other way to describe it.
It's a shadow.
But I also know it's a shadow I cast on myself.

Standing at the edge

The top of the slide

Corkscrew down

If I drop my guard I go for the ride

Step over here

Look from the other side

I think my way there

When no exit can be seen

She reminds me I’m not really there

There's a hint at some of the solution there. At least for me.

If you love me like I think

You hide the suffering well

I must put you in purgatory

When I’m in my hell

Will you keep waiting for me to emerge

From the shadows I walk through

Can you breath for the both of us

Can you be sane for two

The right days are wonderful

But too few

From the darkness I can barely remember them

And the wonder that is you

Every situation is different, but professionals will tell you that interacting with others is key to our mental health.  I know it's not easy.  When I was down, the last thing I wanted to do was to be around anyone.  But I also found that interacting with people was exactly the thing that helped me most consistently.

But mainly, know this:
You are not alone. 
You are loved. 
You have no idea how many lives you touch and how many people would be devastated by your loss. Even people you have never met.
If I made it, you can too.


If you need help and don't know where to start, write to me.  I will help.  


If you feel like you need to talk to someone right now, call The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, 1-800-273-TALK(8255)

You are not alone. 

You are loved.

My Aching Headline

Spell check fails to save New Years Eve party goers from baboon drop.

The Passing Of A Giant

A giant left our world today.  Others more talented than myself will be better able to eulogize him.  But I wanted to pay tribute in my own small way.

  Ray Bradbury is best known for his novels, and in particular, science fiction.   However, I find myself most entertained, most enthralled, by his short stories.  And I think his most compelling work, the stories that reach inside of your heart to the place that tears and smiles are born, are the ones that have no scientific bent to them at all. What follows are excerpts from two of my favorites.  I would encourage you strongly to seek out and read these, and his other stories, in their entirety.

"The first light on the roof outside; very early morning.  The leaves on all the trees tremble with a soft awakening to any breeze the dawn may offer.  And then, far off, around a curve of silver track, comes the trolley, balanced on four small steel-blue wheels, and it is painted the color of tangerines.  Epaulets of shimmery brass cover it, and pipings of gold; and its chrome bell rings if the ancient motorman taps it with a wrinkled shoe.  The numerals on the trolley's front and sides are a bright as lemons.  Within, its seats prickle with cool green moss.  Something like a buggy whip flings up from its roof to brush the spider thread high in the passing trees from which it takes its juice.  From every window blows an incense, the all-pervasive blue and secret smell of summer storms and lightning."

The Trolley

"The grapes tasted of fresh, clear water and something that they had saved from the morning dews and the evening rains. They were the warmed-over flesh of April ready now, in August, to pass on their simple gain to any passing stranger.  And the lesson was this; sit in the sun, head down, within a prickly vine, in flickery light or open light, and the world will come to you. The sky will come in its time bringing rain, and the earth will rise through you, from beneath, and make you rich and make you full."

Hopscotch


"The Trolley" was originally published in GOOD HOUSEKEEPING, copyright 1955 by the Hearst Corporation.  It also appears in the book A Medicine For Melancholy And Other Stories


"Hopscotch" copyright 1996 by Ray Bradbury.  It appears in the book Quicker Than The Eye.